Current mood: thankful

So Im a Mom..like officially government and all... wow..
This has been the most heart felt roller coast ride I have ever been on. I am just here to say I have first hand experience of Gods love and I hold her and it in my arms once a day until they let me hold her more. She is so beautiful and perfect and tiny and I have never felt so scared in all my life. When I went in to the operating room was the single most terrifying moment of my life. I had no idea what to think excpet pray for her and not stop. I could care less about the pain (and let me tell you when they have to reopen your incision and then tell you it has to have a wet to dry bandage which means wet gauze shoved in it until it dries and is done 2-3 times a day OUCH! but what started out at 10 incheslong about 2-3 inches wide and 6 inches deep is now only about 6 inches long 2 inches wide and 2 inches deep so its healing THANK GOD its healing lol) I would do it all over again in a heart beat if I needed to for her. She is doing so awesome though they are talking about moving her to team 2 soon which is a igher patient to nurse ratio (meaning she is doing great and wont require constant supervision the way she does now) she will go from 2 babies:1 nurse to 4 babies:1 nurse. Which is incredible. The earliest we can come home though would be August 12 which would be 34 weeks if I was still preggo with her a general rule of thumb though is that we will be here until her due date September 12th. I guess I better get back up there to that babygirl of mine. I will write more later. Thank you all for your prayers and keeping each other updated. I love yall!

Current mood: drained
...So here is the thing...
I went to ER about a weekish ago for the same ol same old dehydration fluid routine..however my blood pressure was up and I was supposed to call the doc. However I just figured it was because of my headache so I didnt do it. Well then my hands started swelling and I kept putting it off and putting it off until I couldnt take the pain from my feet that are so swollen they are shiny. I had no idea that swelling hurts until now.But I was getting ready to leave for Houston with Eric to help him drive down there and I was going to fly back next Sunday to get ready to move the week after that. (I am moving back into my childhood home on 2nd I am soo excited. When Mom was 8 months preggo with me they were moving there and now I will be 8 months preggo when I move in there with Mikayla. Anyways... i go to thinking I havent been to the doc in a while and I wanted to make sure I wasng going to miss my appointment if it was like next week, they said I was do and they didnt have me down and asked if I could come in that day after 3..so I did and I shouldnt have called and all of that because my diastolic blood pressure was double what it normally is, which apparently isnt good, so Im swelling, passing protien in my urine and my blood pressure is high.. And apprently that translates to really not good, and I have been placed on complete bed rest until Tuesday and if it isnt better fist thing Tuesday morning Doc said he is sending me to the city..and if it is better he will lighten the bed rest to like 60/40 which is 60f my time off my feet and 40n...which compared to the 90/10 they are doing to me right now it will be heaven. I am just killing time sitting...sitting...sitting until 5 o clock gets here because then I get to LEAVE THE HOUSE!! and see my babygirl!!! We have our 3D ultrasound today, I will blog and post pics as soon as I have them. Hope everyone is well, Ill stop the rambling for now. <3 <3 <3